August has been so colorful. A lot of stuff seems to bounce back to the way it was. Some of them are kind of a good thing, like I no longer have a reversed sleep schedule for example. But at the same time, that's also something I kinda wish it didn't change in the first place because now it's difficult for me to stay up past 9 PM which is actually the time when I’m supposed to start my job.
I bought myself a couple of future investments too. One of them is for the professional area, and the other one is for personal pleasure. It felt weird checking them out. I had to think at least a hundred times before I finally said “Okay, I’m positive I really need this.” So far I don’t regret spending a lot of papers on these two things.
Family and work have been pretty good too. I’m basically getting paid to learn, how awesome! Even though I was so nervous at first because the last time my manager asked me to learn how to use HubSpot, I didn't succeed. And the other one before that too, about learning how to run LinkedIn ads, these made me not confident about learning SEO. The great news is I’m able to absorb better this time and I enjoy the process of learning it.
However, all these rainbows feel like nothing sometimes. Especially when things on the news start to hurt my head. I’ve tried to avoid the news, but the mess is all over the place and there’s no way I could cover my eyes from it.
Every single day this weekend I woke up feeling refreshed because I got a good 8 hours of night sleep. But then I get online for a minute and all of that terrible stuff in there immediately weighs down my energy. It’s not that I don’t care about what’s happening in my country lately, but I get overwhelmed so easily and how am I supposed to help them if I can’t even help myself get out of bed? I’m sending my prayer to those who went out on the street fighting for what’s right against those greedy politicians.
Last but not least, the relationship aspect. I’m so in love with my man right now. There’s no love bombing or silly promises this time, yet I’ve never felt this right before. I can feel it deep in my heart that he is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.
I’m hoping next month will bring even more joy to my life, my partner’s, Kat’s, other people that I love and adore, and to everyone who keeps living on this earth even though it’s hard to escape the dark side of their thoughts. Amen.
